from "Come Away My Beloved," by Francis Roberts
Lo, I say unto thee, Wait upon ME. Let thy life be as a deep, quiet pool.
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Only make unto thyself a place apart; yea, a place removed from the press and turmoil, and there I will meet thee. Yea I wait thy coming.
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For I know what things ye have need of, and I am concerned about thine every duty and responsibility. But thou wilt find thy cares have vanished and thy load lightened as by an unseen hand. For I will that ye bring Me thy love, and even as thou art bringing to Me thy love, I shall in turn bring to thee My power,
so that I work for thee in a two-fold measure.
For I give unto thee the power to discharge thy duties with greater efficiency, and I also am actively engaged in working for thee in ways thou canst not see, to make thy path clear, and to bring about things which thou thyself couldest never accomplish, and which would otherwise absorb thine energies and wear out thy patience.
So I say unto thee again...Rest in Me. Wait upon Me. Come apart with me. Seek My face. Seek my fellowship.
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Friday, December 30, 2011
The Blessings of Fellowship - and Babies!
Okay, to those of you who have found my blog and have actually been gracious enough to leave a comment or two.....I have finally found YOU! I think after the first year or two of blogging, I gave up on seeing if there were ever any comments, so I do apologize if you felt ignored (which, truth be told, I haven't spent much time on my blog this winter yet). At any rate, it is such a blessing to find a connection and some like-mindedness with other women in this world!
On another note; I had another OB appointment today, and the twins are getting big already - 4.09 and 5.10 lbs, and we are only at 33 weeks gestationally. My doctor says that is pretty huge for this stage, but we are learning not to be surprised at this. My body seems to thrive on growing big babies, though sometimes I wish that were not so! The bright side of it is - I have always had very good, easy babies who do well at nights right from the start, and I personally think this has something to do with their size and development. I hope the same holds true for these twins, even though individually they will be smaller than the others. On the not-so-bright side, the twins have sort of switched places. The head-down baby had been presenting first, in which case my doctor said she has no problem going ahead with a vaginal delivery, but sometime in the last week or two, the breech baby moved into front/presenting position, which would make a vaginal delivery out of the question. We will be watching this for the next two weeks, to see if they switch back. Please pray for God's will to do be done in this situation, and for my peace of mind, whichever way it goes. I have mixed feelings about a c-section, of course, and even about labor and delivery again so soon (who doesn't, right?), but of all the things I would miss the most if I had to have a c-section, are those wonderful first moments and hour right after their birth. To be fully alert and present of mind - and body!- when I meet those tiny little people is worth the agony in getting there. I would regret/miss that the most if I had to have a ceserean.
On another note; I had another OB appointment today, and the twins are getting big already - 4.09 and 5.10 lbs, and we are only at 33 weeks gestationally. My doctor says that is pretty huge for this stage, but we are learning not to be surprised at this. My body seems to thrive on growing big babies, though sometimes I wish that were not so! The bright side of it is - I have always had very good, easy babies who do well at nights right from the start, and I personally think this has something to do with their size and development. I hope the same holds true for these twins, even though individually they will be smaller than the others. On the not-so-bright side, the twins have sort of switched places. The head-down baby had been presenting first, in which case my doctor said she has no problem going ahead with a vaginal delivery, but sometime in the last week or two, the breech baby moved into front/presenting position, which would make a vaginal delivery out of the question. We will be watching this for the next two weeks, to see if they switch back. Please pray for God's will to do be done in this situation, and for my peace of mind, whichever way it goes. I have mixed feelings about a c-section, of course, and even about labor and delivery again so soon (who doesn't, right?), but of all the things I would miss the most if I had to have a c-section, are those wonderful first moments and hour right after their birth. To be fully alert and present of mind - and body!- when I meet those tiny little people is worth the agony in getting there. I would regret/miss that the most if I had to have a ceserean.
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Goodbye 2011
It is amazing sometimes to reflect on how life has changed, sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly, but always - change. I was just looking at the pictures on my blog page, and realized how little of what used to be still looks the same. My sweet little girls are growing up so fast - and losing their innocent sweetness at the same time, I might add. Those attitudes develop so quickly once they realize they are their own little person, and trying to "train them up in rightousness" is far more than just a full-time job. It can tax a mom's (and a dad's) soul to the very core on so many days. Being vigilant is hard to do when there is so much to divert one's attention and energy - and just in the way of regular chores, not to mention hobbies (who has time for those anymore, right?)!
I was also looking at all the pictures of my canaries - now all gone - and find it hard to believe that I ever had room for them and their cages in the first place. With going from two children to five children within the space of 12 months, I am learning quickly what we can do without, and of course, the birds had to go. I need the space for babies, not pets!
I am finding more and more that I need frequent "refreshers" for my vision as a mom, not to mention wife. Most days I am in survival mode only, and that never bodes well for how I handle all the kids' issues, arguments, and attitudes. It takes more strength and discipline than I ever realized to navigate each day with an actual plan and peaceful, positive attitude, rather than just be pulled along by whatever happens. I have absolutely no idea how I am going to survive, much less thrive, spiritually and emotionally, over the next year, but I want so much to do better than just coast along in survival mode. That, frankly, is going to take a miracle.
I was also looking at all the pictures of my canaries - now all gone - and find it hard to believe that I ever had room for them and their cages in the first place. With going from two children to five children within the space of 12 months, I am learning quickly what we can do without, and of course, the birds had to go. I need the space for babies, not pets!
I am finding more and more that I need frequent "refreshers" for my vision as a mom, not to mention wife. Most days I am in survival mode only, and that never bodes well for how I handle all the kids' issues, arguments, and attitudes. It takes more strength and discipline than I ever realized to navigate each day with an actual plan and peaceful, positive attitude, rather than just be pulled along by whatever happens. I have absolutely no idea how I am going to survive, much less thrive, spiritually and emotionally, over the next year, but I want so much to do better than just coast along in survival mode. That, frankly, is going to take a miracle.
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